Gordon Halm
by Crystal Caron

Photograph by Diana Archibald
Gordon woke up the day that would be his last in Winneba, his small
hometown in Ghana and lay in his bed, unsure of how to spend his final
day. He stayed in bed and imagined what it would be like in America.
He wondered if it would look like in the books he had borrowed over
and over again from his school library and if it would be like the descriptions
his friends had written in their letters to him. He thought then of
his wife. She had been in America for a couple of years and now lived
in a city called Lowell. He wondered if she were happy at her new job,
if she were thinking of him, and if she liked her new home.
He got out of bed and walked outside to enjoy the sunshine. The
sun can't possibly shine this brightly there. He was having second
thoughts. He wondered if he should leave everything he'd ever known
to pursue a better life for children that he didn't yet have.
Realizing that he only had a couple of hours left after sleeping in
and lying in bed contemplating decisions he wasn't sure he wanted to
make, he went back inside to the modest home he shared with his family
to finish packing, wearily.
When the time came, his father drove him to the bus station that would
bring him to the airport that would bring him to America.…
The bus driver yelled, “New York City,” and Gordon checked
his pocket for the piece of paper that was tattered now, at the end
of his journey from Ghana. He had located it so many times to be sure
he hadn’t lost it––holding it in his hand, his thumb
or forefinger moving along its folds for so much of the long flight,
and then this endless bus ride from Canada––that the paper
looked like it was decades, not weeks old. This piece of paper assured
his future in America and contained the address he had jotted down just
before he left home. This address was to be his temporary home, the
first building in which he would live in America, his land of opportunity.
He walked the crowded streets wide-eyed and looking into the faces
of as many of the myriads of people that he could. Searching for a familiar
person or a smile that would remind him of home, he scanned the faces
of the crowd. Gordon has never seen so many people at the same time
and in the same place. He felt uneasy in a place where people power-walked
looking straightforward, never stopping to meet the eyes of passersby
with a smile. He would glimpse hope each time he caught the eye of a
New Yorker, but would agonize with defeat each time the person looked
away.
Missing home more with every smile that never came, he decided to
look up, to try to take in the place since the friendliness he was looking
for was nowhere to be found. He squinted into the sun to see the tops
of buildings higher than any he’d ever seen––cathedrals
and skyscrapers with which he had no memories to associate. He opened
the folds of the piece of paper that had become his prize possession.
He read the address again and asked a man for directions. “Just
head on that way,” the man replied gruffly and pointed down a
street with too many buildings.
As he neared the building that was to be his halfway house, halfway
between his old life and the new life he would begin with his wife in
Lowell, Massachusetts, he saw a young man walking toward him. Not having
lost all faith, he looked into his eyes. These were eyes and a smile
he recognized.
“Brother!” he cried out, to which this man replied the
same. This was a man he knew from home who had come here before him.
Gordon had known him nearly his whole life. He felt relief come over
him as they embraced.
“Come and see where you will live,” said the man. Gordon
followed him up three flights of steep stairs and into a small, untidy
apartment. He looked around to see beds and sleeping bags everywhere
he looked. He glanced in the direction of the kitchen and saw piles
of dirty dishes. He wanted to ask how many people lived in the studio
apartment but did not want to appear ungrateful.
“You must want to get cleaned up,” said his friend as
he showed Gordon the bathroom. It was as dirty as the “bedroom”
and kitchen had been. He turned on the shower and waited a few minutes
for the water to warm up. It didn’t. He waited a few minutes more.
Still nothing. His first shower in America would be a cold one.
The next morning Gordon was shaken out of sleep.
“Up. Come on let's go. Work.” He got up with a start and
decided to skip the cold shower and just get dressed. “Come on,”
his new brother said, “We have to be there in ten minutes.”
Gordon got dressed as quickly as he could and the two were out the door.
They walked six blocks, and his new friend stopped at the sidewalk.
“Here,” he said, and the two opened up the table the two
had carried and started to arrange the imposter “designer”
handbags. Gordon wondered why they were in such a hurry. There were
hardly any possible patrons on the street, but decided that it was best
to get an early start.
He followed his friend's lead and yelled, “Designer handbags
here, designer handbags.” Their stand attracted many young female
tourists. They made more money than Gordon expected and headed back
toward home at nightfall. Waiting for the line for the bathroom to dissipate,
Gordon took his second cold American shower.
It took several months to earn the money to make the trip to Lowell
to be reunited with his wife. When that happy day finally arrived, his
friend brought him to an NYC bus station where Gordon proudly paid his
fare. In a few hours he would see his beautiful wife. He would get to
hold her in his arms again. They would live together again and share
a bed again. He would find work and the two would start a family. He
would give his wife and children the good life that they deserved.
As the bus neared the Lowell station, Gordon searched the crowd for
his wife, remembering every detail of her face as if they had never
been apart. He spotted her. She was even more beautiful than he had
remembered.
He grabbed his bag and started to move toward the front of the bus.
He was the first passenger out the door and ran full speed through the
people to the open arms of his wife. They held each other tightly, and
silently vowed that they would never be apart again.